Monday November 2nd, 2020

Started this day with some unfortunate news, however, it brought about questioning (once again) my ability to achieve those obstacles placed in front of me.

COVID19 brought unpleasantness to my work days between the months of March-June, all due to my department within a nursing home crumbling to one employee alone--myself. I was director, assistant, and a group of leaders all in one. Every day held obstacles and I stuck through.

I have a wonderful team now, with a kick ass director--who is now leaving due to better circumstances in her commute. Despite being upset due to not being able to work with her daily, I understand and wish her all the best one could for someone else.

Now my obstacle is whether or not to take her position. My obstacle is to believe whether or not I'm in a good enough place, a decent enough mindset, to take on the task. My obstacle is to merely believe in myself. After a motivational talk with my S/O, and an even more inspirational talk with my mother-- I've come to the conclusion.

I am enough. I am worthwhile. I will succeed in whatever I put my mind towards. My wings have gotten me this far and I'll continue to soar evermore. Always have. Always will.

This card on day 2 wasn't coincidence.

I'm starting to believe in all the gears ticking together.

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