Embrace this New 2021!

2020 was a devastating year for many people, if not everyone, around the world. I stepped into the year

with hopes to allow myself a change in mindset. I'd lost my Uncle in 2019 unexpectedly and it changed

my perspective on day-to-day activities dramatically. I was treading water for the last leg of the year and

looked forward to a new year in order to look forward to things changing.

Then 2020 happened and the entire world (literally) broke on it's axis.

I worked through the entire pandemic in healthcare, never got COVID-19 (luckily), and still find

myself there to this day. I've lost countless residents throughout the year, fellow coworkers, and overall

energy and the love of life. I've lost myself over this past year and losing my Grammy towards the end

of the year (a few months past my Uncle's one-year anniversary) was the unwanted icing on my 2020

shit-cake. She hadn't even passed of COVID-19 and I can't explain the amount of unhappiness I've felt

overcome me since her passing, even more-so than my Uncle's.

This year was astronomically, overwhelmingly shitty and I can't even fathom the energy to want to

continue along without either of them.

However,

that's not what they'd have wanted for me.

Picking this card out of my oracle deck, on this day especially, impacts my outlook on this new year

to come vigorously.

I'm ready for 2021--for so many beneficial, positive reasons.

Because my Uncle and Grammy would want me to be ready.

Because I'm capable of it.

I'm capable of weathering this storm that's supposedly claimed me.

I'm ready to tighten my sails and surge forth through the water.

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